Because you're so perfect.

Ever had a boyfriend who has been so loyal, and you would never have a reason to stop trusting him just because he is so perfect and would never to do anything to jeopardize your relationship? Yeah me either. I thought I had one. Turns out I was wrong. A whole year together with barely a problem.. until SHE came along.. Now all he ever talk about is her. He texts he non-stop. I even caught him hiding the fact that they were hanging out.. MULTIPLE TIMES! He has always been a great guy. I have never had a reason to think of him as anything but perfect until now. I would never think  he would cheat on me.. But now I'm not sure. And saying that seems so terrible.. But it is pretty suspicious when you catch him hiding things like that right? I've even had friends tell me that they have seen them flirting. I've seen it for myself as well. I feel so crazy, and terrible for feeling this way but I can't help myself. I thought I was the only girl he wanted for life. It breaks my heart to see him with her even if he claims it's nothing it doesn't feel like nothing to me. It feels like everything has changed. I feel like it's all just falling apart. I keep telling myself that it's nothing and that she isn't even pretty. But what good is that going to do? It doesn't even make me feel better. I knew this could never be a forever kind of thing because we want different things. I want to get out of here.. Live my dream and move far away and live in the lime light. He just wants a simple life here with family. But I never thought it might end this soon. I don't want it to. I love him. Even if the time we have will always be limited; my love for him will always be forever. I told him he didn't have to be with me but he said he wanted to. I told him he needs to start acting like it because it hasn't seemed that way in quite a while. I just don't feel important anymore. I know my mama always told me that I don't need a man to be whole, but without him I would just feel empty..